Sunday, August 22, 2010
Saw him today at the church :) Today, I have learnt one important lesson from what the pastor said. That is RADICAL LOVE. One quote truly stuck in my mind. That is, "Hate the sins, love your sinners." Because He first loved us, we should love others. From now on, I will really try my utmost best to forgive and forget. I have come to learn that it is because of the pressure around us which made us sin, BUT as long as we declare our sin to God and repent, our Father will forgive us. I have decided from now on, I will forget about the past and look forward to the future. I will forgive those whom I hate in the past as well. Everytime I go to church, I will feel a sense of peacefulness... ^^
I really don't know where to start about what happened today...
Please God, don't take her away from us now. Not now. Her time shouldn't be up so soon. There are still lots of things I have yet to do with her. I really really can't bear for her to leave us...without her in my life, it is just like me missing part of my heart and soul. God, I promise not to swear, not to lie, to forgive and forget, just so if she can live longer. Please...please..she still has a whole bright future ahead of her..please don't take that away from her so soon. We were not prepared to know about this when she told us today..I couldn't help but cry in Cyn's arms. All I felt was a feeling of devastation. Devastated that she has to face this when she is still so young, devastated that there is a possibility I may lose her. It just felt like my world is crashing down on me, leaving me with no space whatsoever so breathe, to smile. I will always remember the first time I spoke to her..I asked her what was her primary school, and she replied with a soft voice,"Anderson primary." Although we were always teasing one another, we knew that it was our own unique way of communicating. I will always remember the blissful days we spent laughing, crying, telling each other about our problems. I will also remember our hardworking days, when we strive hard to do our best in the drill competition last year and the victory feeling we felt when we won a silver award. I was so foolish..I didn't know that her problem was so serious..till today. I remember when we slept in our sleeping bags side by side during the annual camp last year, and we talked about everything :)
I am going to cherish the time spent with her even more from now on...
A little prayer for her: God, I hope that you will continue to give her strength to carry on with her life. Please give her more time to fulfil her wishes first...and in whatever that she do, she will do it with confidence. May You give her every inch of happiness that she deserves in her life, and renew her heart, mind and soul. Let her feel calm in whatever situations that she faces, and may You take away all her fear. Amen.
I really don't know where to start about what happened today...
Please God, don't take her away from us now. Not now. Her time shouldn't be up so soon. There are still lots of things I have yet to do with her. I really really can't bear for her to leave us...without her in my life, it is just like me missing part of my heart and soul. God, I promise not to swear, not to lie, to forgive and forget, just so if she can live longer. Please...please..she still has a whole bright future ahead of her..please don't take that away from her so soon. We were not prepared to know about this when she told us today..I couldn't help but cry in Cyn's arms. All I felt was a feeling of devastation. Devastated that she has to face this when she is still so young, devastated that there is a possibility I may lose her. It just felt like my world is crashing down on me, leaving me with no space whatsoever so breathe, to smile. I will always remember the first time I spoke to her..I asked her what was her primary school, and she replied with a soft voice,"Anderson primary." Although we were always teasing one another, we knew that it was our own unique way of communicating. I will always remember the blissful days we spent laughing, crying, telling each other about our problems. I will also remember our hardworking days, when we strive hard to do our best in the drill competition last year and the victory feeling we felt when we won a silver award. I was so foolish..I didn't know that her problem was so serious..till today. I remember when we slept in our sleeping bags side by side during the annual camp last year, and we talked about everything :)
I am going to cherish the time spent with her even more from now on...
A little prayer for her: God, I hope that you will continue to give her strength to carry on with her life. Please give her more time to fulfil her wishes first...and in whatever that she do, she will do it with confidence. May You give her every inch of happiness that she deserves in her life, and renew her heart, mind and soul. Let her feel calm in whatever situations that she faces, and may You take away all her fear. Amen.
what we could have been, 6:37 PM.
