Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Went to school at the usual time today, except that we didn't have lessons :D Instead, we did exercises at the parade square, since it's ACES Day. Thereafter, we watched the Teachers' Day celebration in the hall. Entourage was like WOW! Their dance performance left me amazed and awaken(cause the previous performances were a little boring..I almost slept >< ) Their performance was totally superb~! Especially the action part of Lee Hyori's 'Chitty Chitty Bang Bang'. Some ex-seniors popped by our school to meet up and chat with their former teachers too :)
It's better to just quietly miss someone. Rather than let them know and just get no response. -Alice Hoffman
Beauty gets the attention, personality gets the heart. -Elisabeth Kubler
It's better to just quietly miss someone. Rather than let them know and just get no response. -Alice Hoffman
Beauty gets the attention, personality gets the heart. -Elisabeth Kubler
what we could have been, 2:53 PM.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Weeee~! Had lots of fun yesterday at the church bazaar. Played Wii with Cyn, Gowri and Siying, and it was really cute! Gowri and I wanted to play another game, which needed 3 people in it, one person will be singing while the other two will need to play the 'guitar'. Gowri volunteered to sing and I decided to play the 'guitar'. We needed one more person to help us complete the game, and..Siying went to ask William, who was standing near the game booth as well, but I think Siying was a bit fierce when asking him..cause she insisted that he play with us :X and..yea. He didn't agree to help us..Siying even went to tug at his sleeve out of desperation lol. Then me, Cyn and Gowri were like standing there, shocked. We were stunned for words. We asked Joel as well, but he also didn't want to play :P In the end Ian helped us. Yay! We scored a 97% in it~ :D
Watching Haha Mong show with Kara in it~ There's also one with SNSD, but I watched that already~
Watching Haha Mong show with Kara in it~ There's also one with SNSD, but I watched that already~
what we could have been, 6:16 PM.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Led the 5BX today in GB, and it was great! Well, for Sec 3s and the advisors..Sec 1s seem unwilling to exercise :( Had my drill stage 2 practical test, but the results are not out yet, so I will have to wait until Monday. Hope I will pass! I really put in all my effort into it, so at least I can tell myself I had tried my best :) Going to church tomorrow.
Weekends are the best, cause that's the only time I can rest and relax with friends..as well as the chance to see him :)
Weekends are the best, cause that's the only time I can rest and relax with friends..as well as the chance to see him :)
what we could have been, 5:38 PM.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Saw him today at the church :) Today, I have learnt one important lesson from what the pastor said. That is RADICAL LOVE. One quote truly stuck in my mind. That is, "Hate the sins, love your sinners." Because He first loved us, we should love others. From now on, I will really try my utmost best to forgive and forget. I have come to learn that it is because of the pressure around us which made us sin, BUT as long as we declare our sin to God and repent, our Father will forgive us. I have decided from now on, I will forget about the past and look forward to the future. I will forgive those whom I hate in the past as well. Everytime I go to church, I will feel a sense of peacefulness... ^^
I really don't know where to start about what happened today...
Please God, don't take her away from us now. Not now. Her time shouldn't be up so soon. There are still lots of things I have yet to do with her. I really really can't bear for her to leave us...without her in my life, it is just like me missing part of my heart and soul. God, I promise not to swear, not to lie, to forgive and forget, just so if she can live longer. Please...please..she still has a whole bright future ahead of her..please don't take that away from her so soon. We were not prepared to know about this when she told us today..I couldn't help but cry in Cyn's arms. All I felt was a feeling of devastation. Devastated that she has to face this when she is still so young, devastated that there is a possibility I may lose her. It just felt like my world is crashing down on me, leaving me with no space whatsoever so breathe, to smile. I will always remember the first time I spoke to her..I asked her what was her primary school, and she replied with a soft voice,"Anderson primary." Although we were always teasing one another, we knew that it was our own unique way of communicating. I will always remember the blissful days we spent laughing, crying, telling each other about our problems. I will also remember our hardworking days, when we strive hard to do our best in the drill competition last year and the victory feeling we felt when we won a silver award. I was so foolish..I didn't know that her problem was so serious..till today. I remember when we slept in our sleeping bags side by side during the annual camp last year, and we talked about everything :)
I am going to cherish the time spent with her even more from now on...
A little prayer for her: God, I hope that you will continue to give her strength to carry on with her life. Please give her more time to fulfil her wishes first...and in whatever that she do, she will do it with confidence. May You give her every inch of happiness that she deserves in her life, and renew her heart, mind and soul. Let her feel calm in whatever situations that she faces, and may You take away all her fear. Amen.
I really don't know where to start about what happened today...
Please God, don't take her away from us now. Not now. Her time shouldn't be up so soon. There are still lots of things I have yet to do with her. I really really can't bear for her to leave us...without her in my life, it is just like me missing part of my heart and soul. God, I promise not to swear, not to lie, to forgive and forget, just so if she can live longer. Please...please..she still has a whole bright future ahead of her..please don't take that away from her so soon. We were not prepared to know about this when she told us today..I couldn't help but cry in Cyn's arms. All I felt was a feeling of devastation. Devastated that she has to face this when she is still so young, devastated that there is a possibility I may lose her. It just felt like my world is crashing down on me, leaving me with no space whatsoever so breathe, to smile. I will always remember the first time I spoke to her..I asked her what was her primary school, and she replied with a soft voice,"Anderson primary." Although we were always teasing one another, we knew that it was our own unique way of communicating. I will always remember the blissful days we spent laughing, crying, telling each other about our problems. I will also remember our hardworking days, when we strive hard to do our best in the drill competition last year and the victory feeling we felt when we won a silver award. I was so foolish..I didn't know that her problem was so serious..till today. I remember when we slept in our sleeping bags side by side during the annual camp last year, and we talked about everything :)
I am going to cherish the time spent with her even more from now on...
A little prayer for her: God, I hope that you will continue to give her strength to carry on with her life. Please give her more time to fulfil her wishes first...and in whatever that she do, she will do it with confidence. May You give her every inch of happiness that she deserves in her life, and renew her heart, mind and soul. Let her feel calm in whatever situations that she faces, and may You take away all her fear. Amen.
what we could have been, 6:37 PM.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Went for GB today and had two and a half hours practising drill with the Sec 2s. Love the general fall-in and the homad commands! Anyway, I was the timer during drill..and when I saw him sitting down on the bench, I almost stumbled over my timing... >< And that was something I never did before..usually I will concentrate on what I am doing at the moment, and nothing could distract me. Well, I guess he is the only one who can do that.. ><
Having her as a friend really brings me a lot of frustration, and I made a decision today. It is to end my misery. I think you will know what this means. I have broken my friendship ties with her. She is not worthy of my trust, because she had broken it many times before. Here is a question. Which true friend will tell false tales to other people behind your back? By doing so, she has already broken one of the Ten Commandments, "You shall not give false testimony of your neighbours." Whatever things that she do and say behind our backs, I believe that only our Father in Heaven above will know.
Through the blurriness in my life, you are the only one whom I can see :)
Having her as a friend really brings me a lot of frustration, and I made a decision today. It is to end my misery. I think you will know what this means. I have broken my friendship ties with her. She is not worthy of my trust, because she had broken it many times before. Here is a question. Which true friend will tell false tales to other people behind your back? By doing so, she has already broken one of the Ten Commandments, "You shall not give false testimony of your neighbours." Whatever things that she do and say behind our backs, I believe that only our Father in Heaven above will know.
Through the blurriness in my life, you are the only one whom I can see :)
what we could have been, 3:14 PM.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Me and Cyn went for YOG Canoeing today at Marina Reservoir! It was great, as it was the first time I went for an Olympic Game :) Btw, a brazilian guy smiled and waved to both of us, and Cyn almost went crazy over it. She kept saying that she will support Brazil, and insisted that she also support Singapore after I teased her about it. This is the first time she's like really mad about a stranger HAHA~! But that particular friendly stranger was not to my taste..cause it's hard to change...
We ate subway melts for our lunch. Footlong honey oat bread, with lettuce, cucumber, tomatoes and sweet onion sauce!!! I'm officially loving Subway! <3
We ate subway melts for our lunch. Footlong honey oat bread, with lettuce, cucumber, tomatoes and sweet onion sauce!!! I'm officially loving Subway! <3
what we could have been, 9:37 PM.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Went for GB today, and we had games day with BB and YMM youths. We played handball and captain's ball. I must admit, it was quite fun, and I sweat a lot! My whole shirt was as if someone had thrown a bucket of water over me HAHA! My team had Wai Wan, Yun Hui, Alyssa(YMM), and 3 BB guys. I think all of them were sec 1s. LOL i don't even remember their names ._.Anyway, I had a great time as the most oldest one there! Except for Waiwan :) The Fragile one looked as if he was gonna be knocked over by the ball! (Lucky it did'nt smash him -.-) lol! We ate our lunch together..in our group. I was a bit dumbfounded when a sec 1 asked me(the leader ><) whether we can eat already, cause I did'nt pay attention to what they had said about eating immediately after you have the food XP lucky Wai Wan came to my rescue~ lol. Although it's okay to have games day with them, but having a camp with them feels weird. Sian..no privacy with friends :S Haiz..I will just stop thinking about that for now.
That person really makes me frustrated. This time round, I'm not very angry, cause I have learnt not to be angry towards that kind of person already. I just felt so shiok after I had scolded her for her selfishness via sms. I feel like I'm just wasting my SMSes to her, cause a person like her will never listen. She only knows how to accuse others, and when she is scolding others some bad words, she cannot even spell correctly wahahaha! I'm like laughing at her for all her stupid deeds XD
"You don't know me, so shut up boy."
That person really makes me frustrated. This time round, I'm not very angry, cause I have learnt not to be angry towards that kind of person already. I just felt so shiok after I had scolded her for her selfishness via sms. I feel like I'm just wasting my SMSes to her, cause a person like her will never listen. She only knows how to accuse others, and when she is scolding others some bad words, she cannot even spell correctly wahahaha! I'm like laughing at her for all her stupid deeds XD
"You don't know me, so shut up boy."
what we could have been, 8:57 PM.
Friday, August 13, 2010
Tomorrow's games day with bb..and I feel extremely tired now. I don't think I will even have the energy to run around..if there's games which requires us to run :/ Haiz..I would rather go out and eat with Cyn instead of them providing lunch for us. I know I should not be complaining..but I just don't feel like eating in school with the rest. I wanna eat ban mian/Subway with Cyn :'(
I'm getting more and more lazy now (together with my friends lol). I don't even feel like going down for recess, because then I would have to climb up to the fourth floor all over again. Maybe the reason is..SCHOOL! Maybe school is making me feel that way. Haha..I should stop being so lazy! Must watch my diet! Must exercise more! I can do it! :)
Going for YOG canoeing with Cyn this Sunday ^^ <3
I'm getting more and more lazy now (together with my friends lol). I don't even feel like going down for recess, because then I would have to climb up to the fourth floor all over again. Maybe the reason is..SCHOOL! Maybe school is making me feel that way. Haha..I should stop being so lazy! Must watch my diet! Must exercise more! I can do it! :)
Going for YOG canoeing with Cyn this Sunday ^^ <3
what we could have been, 10:22 PM.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Nowadays it seems that Physics is a little more easier than Chemistry..hmm..
Woke up today feeling totally exhausted. Must be all the anger yesterday that made me feel that way. Thank you to all those who had comforted me yesterday. Specifically, they are Cyn, Jeannie and Advisor Siew Fong. :) Until yesterday, I had been controlling my temper quite well..but everything just went POP! when I heard those hurtful words she said to me. Seriously, those sarcastic words were like swords piercing right through my heart. I hope that, if she says this everytime to people without realising it, someone will point out to her that she should select which words are suitable to come out of her mouth. I shall not talk about this any longer, for fear that I will mull over it for too long and feel distraught, thinking that there is actually such a person who thinks of me that way...
This incident has set me thinking about what people really think of me...
Woke up today feeling totally exhausted. Must be all the anger yesterday that made me feel that way. Thank you to all those who had comforted me yesterday. Specifically, they are Cyn, Jeannie and Advisor Siew Fong. :) Until yesterday, I had been controlling my temper quite well..but everything just went POP! when I heard those hurtful words she said to me. Seriously, those sarcastic words were like swords piercing right through my heart. I hope that, if she says this everytime to people without realising it, someone will point out to her that she should select which words are suitable to come out of her mouth. I shall not talk about this any longer, for fear that I will mull over it for too long and feel distraught, thinking that there is actually such a person who thinks of me that way...
This incident has set me thinking about what people really think of me...
what we could have been, 5:48 PM.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Damn it. I'm really pissed off with her. I've been tolerating her ever since the start of this year. Not only is she bossy, she is also very biased to some of us. Wtf. I totally hate her laugh man. She absolutely loves taking advantage of her authority to boss us around. So like I said on msn, it's really such an irony. A bossy person accusing others of bossing ppl around? Wtf. Come on la, she thinks that just because she's older than us by 3 years, she can treat us like shit or something? Wtf. I can promise, if she do this again and leaves me with no choice, one day I might just blow up at her. So she better not think that she is the boss among them all and accuse us ever again. Damn it.
We were just checking around to see if anyone need top-up of the drinks or smth, and i was like asking cyn and gowri smth abt the sandwiches they made that they were distributing, and she just accused me of slacking and bossing them around. And I was like, 'wtf?! do you even understand the situation?". If not, u better shut ur mouth and keep quiet! Although I may seem weak to others, but she better bear in mind that i'm not a pushover, or a sandbag for her to boss around. I find that she always likes to pinpoint at my mistakes, even though some may not be what she should care at all! So what if you're older than us, so what if your position is higher than us, so what if you're taller than us, so what if you have studied more than us? Does that mean you can accuse me whenever you want, and for everything that I do? Please la, come on. You should worry abt urself instead of trying to interfere in what u should not be interfering in. You better stop using ur authority to control wad we do, cuz that's not any of ur damn problem right?! I reckon in future, she might also tell me, "hey that friend is not suitable for you. hey, that earstick is not nice. hey, do this now! hey can i bully you?"
Whatever. Just Shut Up.
We were just checking around to see if anyone need top-up of the drinks or smth, and i was like asking cyn and gowri smth abt the sandwiches they made that they were distributing, and she just accused me of slacking and bossing them around. And I was like, 'wtf?! do you even understand the situation?". If not, u better shut ur mouth and keep quiet! Although I may seem weak to others, but she better bear in mind that i'm not a pushover, or a sandbag for her to boss around. I find that she always likes to pinpoint at my mistakes, even though some may not be what she should care at all! So what if you're older than us, so what if your position is higher than us, so what if you're taller than us, so what if you have studied more than us? Does that mean you can accuse me whenever you want, and for everything that I do? Please la, come on. You should worry abt urself instead of trying to interfere in what u should not be interfering in. You better stop using ur authority to control wad we do, cuz that's not any of ur damn problem right?! I reckon in future, she might also tell me, "hey that friend is not suitable for you. hey, that earstick is not nice. hey, do this now! hey can i bully you?"
Whatever. Just Shut Up.
what we could have been, 8:08 PM.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Me and Cyn went to gym last Saturday, and I felt really healthy! We tried out the sauna for the second time, and i THINK I had sweated. My skin had gotten a bit numb from the heat, so I could'nt feel whether it was water we splashed on our skin or my own sweat lol. Ate at Subway after that, and man, I officially and totally love their food! <3 And that was the day I told something really private to Yuhui >< and Cyn was the one who told me to tell him, since she said that he is the most trusted one among the BB ppl lol ><
We went to church with our advisors on Sunday, and it was an enjoyable moment as I got to see my friends! Especially CYNTHIA LIM :D And I saw him too :) We went around carrying trays filled with canned drinks and biscuits etc., and selling them. Some ppl said that we looked like air stewardesses providing inflight service HAHA. While me and Cyn were doing our rounds, Sir James threw a fake rubber cockroach on our tray, attempting to scare us! Luckily, we did'nt run around screaming like hyenas XD Ha see the courage of GB girls!!! ;) After going home, I went for tuition. I was going to doze off while the teacher was teaching, and my pen almost dropped to the floor >< was too tired already..
Today is my mum's birthday! She was born on 9 August 1965, exactly the day Singapore became independent. Lucky, huh? :D Anyway, happy birthday to Singapore!!! I realised that I'm quite proud to be a Singaporean, after looking at the situations around the world. (Protests, war etc.) :O
Next Saturday we'll be having combined Games Day..sian.. :S
YOG!!!! ^^
We went to church with our advisors on Sunday, and it was an enjoyable moment as I got to see my friends! Especially CYNTHIA LIM :D And I saw him too :) We went around carrying trays filled with canned drinks and biscuits etc., and selling them. Some ppl said that we looked like air stewardesses providing inflight service HAHA. While me and Cyn were doing our rounds, Sir James threw a fake rubber cockroach on our tray, attempting to scare us! Luckily, we did'nt run around screaming like hyenas XD Ha see the courage of GB girls!!! ;) After going home, I went for tuition. I was going to doze off while the teacher was teaching, and my pen almost dropped to the floor >< was too tired already..
Today is my mum's birthday! She was born on 9 August 1965, exactly the day Singapore became independent. Lucky, huh? :D Anyway, happy birthday to Singapore!!! I realised that I'm quite proud to be a Singaporean, after looking at the situations around the world. (Protests, war etc.) :O
Next Saturday we'll be having combined Games Day..sian.. :S
YOG!!!! ^^
what we could have been, 9:55 PM.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Thank you so much, Cyn~ thank you for being my shelter when I was down, for being my listening ear when I had no one to talk to and for being my closest friend/twin ever in my life. I am really honoured to have met someone like you in my whole lifetime. We will lean on each other when we are sad, for both of us know that we always put up a strong front in front of others. I promise that I will not forget you. Ever. You are the one who brought warmth and laughter into my life, and you built up my confidence throughout the 3 years that I have known you. For that, I really thank you :)
*默默在你的身後守候的我, 多想看你不經意的笑容*
*默默在你的身後守候的我, 多想看你不經意的笑容*
what we could have been, 5:41 PM.
