Wednesday, May 26, 2010
So, we went for horse-riding today. I got a horse which couldn't stop stretching her head forward, and as I was holding the reins, I almost fell to the ground from above the horse's head. Let me tell you, that was the worst experience I had with a horse throughout my lessons so far. But I don't get it. When the person hold the reins, the horse stop moving immediately, but the moment he let go, it started going..mad again! T_T I was controlling my temper at first, but until one point, I couldn't take it anymore and the tears just flowed down. I feel like a weakling whenever I cried, so crying does not come naturally to me. I will always stop my tears when there are people around me, no matter how sad I am. I have this feeling that in other people's presence, I have to put up a strong front so that they won't see the weak side of me.
Worst still, during the lesson, I actually cried in front of my juniors...and I think that's really unacceptable, cause I'm not supposed to show the weak side of me to anyone, especially my juniors. Although people say that when you are sad, you should let the tears flow so that you feel better. But at least not cry in front of anyone!!! That's just so weak, and I'm not about to be a person who cries at every single thing. I must be strong!
Now is the funny part after the lesson. When me and Cynthia walked out of the school gate, she told me, "Look at the sky! So beautiful!". As we were both staring in awe at the amazingly beautiful sky, a bolt of lightning flashed across the sky! The moment we saw that, we both let out a sound like this, "UHHHH". It was actually our shocked voices, but I don't know why it came out as quite manly voices HAHAHA! On the bus, we did the "cork eye and twist" action, which we laughed like crazy over. I expect we'll be doing that everytime we meet each other from now onwards, haha! ^^ Thank you, Cynthia, for comforting me today :)
Worst still, during the lesson, I actually cried in front of my juniors...and I think that's really unacceptable, cause I'm not supposed to show the weak side of me to anyone, especially my juniors. Although people say that when you are sad, you should let the tears flow so that you feel better. But at least not cry in front of anyone!!! That's just so weak, and I'm not about to be a person who cries at every single thing. I must be strong!
Now is the funny part after the lesson. When me and Cynthia walked out of the school gate, she told me, "Look at the sky! So beautiful!". As we were both staring in awe at the amazingly beautiful sky, a bolt of lightning flashed across the sky! The moment we saw that, we both let out a sound like this, "UHHHH". It was actually our shocked voices, but I don't know why it came out as quite manly voices HAHAHA! On the bus, we did the "cork eye and twist" action, which we laughed like crazy over. I expect we'll be doing that everytime we meet each other from now onwards, haha! ^^ Thank you, Cynthia, for comforting me today :)
what we could have been, 9:29 PM.
